I've been a bad bad blogger. I
couldn't face sitting at the computer for the past month. Although both
of us would have preferred otherwise for obvious reasons, my partner and
I had off work since Christmas week. Financially not exactly what we
needed right now but for our family it was fantastic! So, my actor-self
got side-tracked by my mommy, partner and gardener-self and to be
perfectly honest it was very very easy to get side-tracked. There has
simply nothing been going on. No classes, no workshops, no (official)
net-working events, no auditions, no audition notices, NO WORD from my
All this doesn't mean that I have been completely lax.
fact, I have been rather busy. I have overhauled my CVs (reg &
actor) and for lack of actual job offers have sent it out to a few
people to hold on to for me until something crops up. I have organised
my bills and receipts and tax returns. I have cleaned the house top to
bottom (well, almost). I have weeded and sowed and planted and
fertilised and watered my green friends out in the garden.
I should really feel good about
myself right now. I have done what I could under the circumstances.
Unfortunately, I am yet against my own worst critic and enemy. What is
with us people and the self-loathing? Frankly all this free time,
meaning family time, as much as I needed and enjoyed it, was not good
for my head. Or actually it was excellent for my head as I the
actress/writer/artist am now firmly back in it. How inconvenient, how
Instead of flagellating myself
for my current (lack of - haha, I know - ) head space, I have started
the year again being pro-active. Aforementioned CVs are updated and
look, may I say so myself, rather spiffing, thanks to my amazing,
multi-talented partner. I have progressed with my film script and come
to the conclusion that I really don't care if anyone will ever read it
or whether it will ever get made. I am satisfied with writing/having
written it. I'm sick of putting so much pressure on me. I mean
seriously! It's my first ever attempt at a script, might as well enjoy
the ride and set a positive and encouraging precedent for the future,
right?! I also have an action plan for this year and I'll let you know
throughout the year how I'm going with that.
First point of order: Pull my head out of my arse.
Thanks for staying with me despite the radio silence everyone.
And Happy New Year!