There's always something to do

While I am sitting at home with absolutely zilch auditions on the horizon and no cash to afford any classes whatsoever I'm not exactly twiddling my thumb, staring into space. Waiting for things to happen won't get me very far. It might get me to the fridge but frequent trips to the ice box are so not good for the waistline.

But I'm digressing! So, while my inner actor is bored out of her mind, I found this: SAG's Special Event Video Gallery. Do check it out. There is some amazing stuff on there and it's free, accessible also in New Zealand. Heck, you can even watch it on your iPhone. Yay!

So, I've been spending my toddler-free lunch break learning about my voice, my vocal chords, my larynx and Yogi Bear (Watch SAG Foundation Master Class with voice coach Roger Love).

Have fun watching and learning!

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Thanks Toronto Actress!

Trouble in Paradise

The honeymoon phase is over, the rose-tinted glasses are gone. Now there's trouble in paradise.

Remember the post way back in March last year when I announced that I had signed with an agent? Oh how positive and exciting everything was then! How great it was to go to my first professional auditions! How hard I have worked to stay in training, to get experience and to stay pro-active! How hard I have tried since signing with my agency to establish a strong any relationship at all with them!

Something went wrong along the way and frankly I am a bit tired of being the only one interested in trying to figure out what.

So, it's time for a change. I have put this off for far too long, telling myself that I needed new hair and new headshots first. Screw that. No more excuses. I am taking the plunge and submitting myself to three new agents today.

Except for an agent who doesn't seem to work for me/believe in me, I have nothing to loose.

If worse comes to worst, I'll fill my resume and my actor soul with more experience and re-submit in a few months time. I'm in it for the long haul - it's marathon, not sprint.

Happy New Year

I've been a bad bad blogger. I couldn't face sitting at the computer for the past month. Although both of us would have preferred otherwise for obvious reasons, my partner and I had off work since Christmas week. Financially not exactly what we needed right now but for our family it was fantastic! So, my actor-self got side-tracked by my mommy, partner and gardener-self and to be perfectly honest it was very very easy to get side-tracked. There has simply nothing been going on. No classes, no workshops, no (official) net-working events, no auditions, no audition notices, NO WORD from my agency...

All this doesn't mean that I have been completely lax.

In fact, I have been rather busy. I have overhauled my CVs (reg & actor) and for lack of actual job offers have sent it out to a few people to hold on to for me until something crops up. I have organised my bills and receipts and tax returns. I have cleaned the house top to bottom (well, almost). I have weeded and sowed and planted and fertilised and watered my green friends out in the garden.

I should really feel good about myself right now. I have done what I could under the circumstances. Unfortunately, I am yet against my own worst critic and enemy. What is with us people and the self-loathing? Frankly all this free time, meaning family time, as much as I needed and enjoyed it, was not good for my head. Or actually it was excellent for my head as I the actress/writer/artist am now firmly back in it. How inconvenient, how annoying.

Instead of flagellating myself for my current (lack of - haha, I know - ) head space, I have started the year again being pro-active. Aforementioned CVs are updated and look, may I say so myself, rather spiffing, thanks to my amazing, multi-talented partner. I have progressed with my film script and come to the conclusion that I really don't care if anyone will ever read it or whether it will ever get made. I am satisfied with writing/having written it. I'm sick of putting so much pressure on me. I mean seriously! It's my first ever attempt at a script, might as well enjoy the ride and set a positive and encouraging precedent for the future, right?! I also have an action plan for this year and I'll let you know throughout the year how I'm going with that.

First point of order: Pull my head out of my arse.

Thanks for staying with me despite the radio silence everyone.

And Happy New Year!