Rough patch

Remember my last post? The one were I was on about how much I love summer and that there were so many opportunities coming up?

Well, part one is still true. This summer, so far, is truly glorious! I'm spending every free minute outside, eating some of our raspberries fresh off the bush every day, and even the infamous Wellington wind has become a good friend. Even on an overcast day like today, summer still feels on.

The other part, the one about opportunities on the other hand, has turned out to be more of a day dream than reality. That I have to pass on theatre work for the time being has cut my gig opportunity in half as it is but other auditions are so few and far in between that the thought of regular auditioning is simply laughable.

As far as auditions through my agency are concerned, either there are none or I'm not getting any. Or my agent isn't working for me. I am sending regular updates to them and to the last one the response was that they are hoping to get some paid work in for me soon and that it hasn't happened yet certainly wasn't for their lack of trying.

What am I supposed to make of that? Are there really no jobs or am I just a shit actor that no one wants to audition?

And don't even get me started on that day job that is supposed to be paying my bills.

It's a bit of a rough patch.

Luckily, just when I started feeling really sorry for myself, I got asked to do a workshop for a first-time director. I had worked with the producer of the film on two other shorts earlier this year and she asked if I could help out. It's a two hour workshop tomorrow night and an opportunity at the very least to have some fun! So, between my three hour class tonight and the workshop tomorrow that's five hours - plus preparation time - worth of acting this week. This week I actually am a lucky girl.

Why is it that I feel so down and frustrated then?

Are you stuck in a rough patch? Are the times when you're not auditioning doing your head in, too? Are you having trouble believing in yourself from time to time?

Lets get together here for some commiserating and then get off our sorry bums and do what we gotta do to stay sane in this crazy biz.