Remember my last post? The one were I was on about how much I love summer and that there were so many opportunities coming up?
Well, part one is still true. This summer, so far, is truly glorious!
I'm spending every free minute outside, eating some of our raspberries
fresh off the bush every day, and even the infamous Wellington wind has
become a good friend. Even on an overcast day like today, summer still
The other part, the one about opportunities on the other hand, has
turned out to be more of a day dream than reality. That I have to pass
on theatre work for the time being has cut my gig opportunity in half as
it is but other auditions are so few and far in between that the
thought of regular auditioning is simply laughable.
As far as auditions through my agency are concerned,
either there are none or I'm not getting any. Or my agent isn't working
for me. I am sending regular updates to them and to the last one the
response was that they are hoping to get some paid work in for me soon
and that it hasn't happened yet certainly wasn't for their lack of
What am I supposed to make of that? Are there really no jobs or am I just a shit actor that no one wants to audition?
And don't even get me started on that day job that is supposed to be paying my bills.
It's a bit of a rough patch.
Luckily, just when I started feeling really sorry for myself, I got
asked to do a workshop for a first-time director. I had worked with the
producer of the film on two other shorts earlier this year and she asked
if I could help out. It's a two hour workshop tomorrow night and an
opportunity at the very least to have some fun! So, between my three
hour class tonight and the workshop tomorrow that's five hours - plus
preparation time - worth of acting this week. This week I actually am a
Why is it that I feel so down and frustrated then?
Are you stuck in a rough patch? Are the times when you're not
auditioning doing your head in, too? Are you having trouble believing in
yourself from time to time?
Lets get together here for some commiserating and then get off our sorry
bums and do what we gotta do to stay sane in this crazy biz.