As I was walking to the mailbox this morning, I knew that there would be a letter and I knew what it was going to say. Maybe it was the storm that is raging across New Zealand that was the omen I had waited for. Let me tell you, last nights weather was extremely foreboding.
So, you guessed it 'Unfortunately, on this occasion, your audition was not successfull.'
I don't really know how I feel about this. Except that I am feeling a
little bit sick and there's a big lump in my throat. I guess, I am
disappointed. I really would have loved to do the weekend workshop. All
the things I could have learned! I guess, this annoys me more than
anything else because as I have said before,
under my current circumstances I would not be able to accept a place at
the school next year anyway. The workshop would have been the only
thing I could have done at Toi. Darn.
All of this doesn't mean that I can't be or that I am not an actress. I
just have to work harder and find other ways to get the training that I
want. These news actually make me want to work harder, not to prove them
wrong but to prove to myself that I am worthy of what I am. I am an
In the meantime, congratulations to all of you who got into the weekend
workshop. Well done! I'm wishing you all white light, good luck and an